I feel like I have all the thoughts lately.
Like you know how people are always like "all the feels" and you get super emotional and start crying?
Well I have all the thoughts.
Maybe with a side of the feels.
And they're not even coherent thoughts, it's a lot of jumbled-ness.
Like, "hmmm what do I want to do with the rest of my life?" and then I start pondering for like 2 seconds and then think "oh yeah I have ice cream in the freezer!" Then I run off and grab my ice cream and start watching Netflix. But it's not all rainbows and butterflies bc there's like a subtle anxiety in the back of my head?
And I'm probably (definitely) being dramatic buuuuuuuuut....
I feel like I'm interested in soooooo many things that picking just one to find a job in is overwhelming...Does anyone else have this problem?? I feel like I'm surrounded by people who have known exactly what they wanted to do from the womb. And people are always asking, "oh what are you doing next? what is your plan?" and I just kinda make something up that sounds sort of plausible and give a most likely crazy looking smile bc inside my head I'm like "ahhhhhhhhhh I HAVE NO IDEA AND IT'S FREAKING ME OUT"
And I've changed my mind soooo many times I feel like no one takes me seriously anymore lol.
I mean I went from wanting to work in the fashion industry my freshman year of college to completely discarding that whole idea and pretty much going the complete opposite direction and deciding I wanted to do wildlife conservation my senior year.
And now I don't even know if I still want to do that!!!
Like I want to be an environmentally friendly person and work to educate the public buttttt do I actually want to work in that industry forever? #idk
And because I have so many interests I feel like my resume is allllll over the place! And lots of jobs I'm applying to are like "you need to have 50 years of experience and 12 recommendation letters and you'll also get paid nothing". Like ummmm excuse me WHAT?
Plus on top of that I have this horrible haircut right now. I guess that's what you get when you go to a new hairstylist and ask for "a trim and a couple layers" and then you get pretty much half your hair chopped off and a mullet.
What is life.
Ughhh I know I sound like the whiniest complainiest poster child for #firstworldproblems
And I'm sorry but thank you guys for listening (reading).
Anywho. And I miss blogging a lot! I still have so many places to get through and so many ideas for new posts. But I've been absent mainly because I'm trying to give my blog a face lift (pretty much full body lift, for that matter) and coming up with a new name and logo and structure of posts and design is more of a pain than I thought!
But I really really miss writing here, so, maybe I'll just keep entertaining (annoying?) you all (lol by you all I mean myself) and continue this blog venture until I come up with a new name/vision/dream/life??????